Restore My Heart

Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave.  –Song of Songs 8:6

I need You as my rhythm. I desire to know You more; ignite the smoldering places inside that sit in ash. Draw back the veil that has blinded my eyes, let my soul soak in Your gaze, full of love and mercy, charged with a fierceness that shows me You are coming for me.

You want to restore my heart, ready to exceed what I could hope for. You stand, chomping at the bit to crawl inside me, flood me with a thousand surges of sun, burst open the dead spaces and shine Your abundance into me. Oh, how You want to love me! Relentlessly. How You long for me to let You! To show up and save me and take me captive by Your fervent gentleness. If only I would open the door on which You scrape Your knuckles, desperate to come in. Clamoring for my attention, willing me to take Your hand.

What keeps me from allowing myself all of You? When You are eager to consume my tender places, the yearning of my heart climbs to find You. I am timid to let myself go. But You are so patient with me, ever patient. How quickly You’d rush in if I dared to unlayer.

What does it look like to let Your love encompass me whole? And what is it You cannot wait to show me? Speak into my soul, warm Your breath beneath my breast, uncover my skin and splash me with Your intimacy, the sweet way You hold me. Pry away my reservations, the tentative grasp I shift between my hands to keep You at arm’s length. Be deliberate, break the distance, rush to me and lift my lips to taste and see the sacred kiss that melds my life completely to You. To rest assured in the honor and abandonment of Your wild love.

Be the lover of my soul, unshakeable and saturated in the great lengths You’ve spanned to find me and fall into my heart.

Read Again:

Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave.  –Song of Songs 8:6

Linger:

Are you giving God all of your heart?

What holds you back?

God, what are You saying to me through this verse?

Lord, let my heart receive You. Let my soul allow You to consume me with Your love, with Your kindness and mercy and tenderness. Let me open my deepest places with the trust and hope that You will take great care of me. You say You draw near to those who draw near to You. Show me, please. Stand firm on the promises of who You are and how You show up to Your beloved. Make me aware of how it is only You who rushes in to set me free. Amen.